ffaaaaa-unk.

I've been in a funk.

not just any funk, but a faaaaa-unk. 

(an even deeper funk)

I'm not really sure why, or how, or really even when it all started. But I do know that it stopped me from working out, going out with my friends, and just being me. 

Then I saw this picture of me. I remembered this day, and laughing and screaming as my friends and I took pictures together. I really miss those days. When I could be carefree, my crazy self, and just love on my friends with no second thought. 

Why do I let all these things just bog me down until I can't even breathe? 

Why do I let other people's thoughts of me ruin my own thoughts? 

Why do I let them rule my happiness?

I still cannot even answer that. 

But then I saw this today when I was out with my little siblings. 

I love the US Army. And how true that statement really is in my life. Look at this amazing journey I am on, these amazing things I get to do, and the people I will meet. This is all in my future, and not theirs. If you want to lie to me, use me, be fake, then do it. In 5 years when I'm off making all my dreams come true, you tell me how being alone feels. I'd rather be lonely in a world all of my own, making all my dreams come true, then in a world where I bring people down and don't go anywhere in life. 

All in all, if you're going to be a part of my life, be there. If not, please don't waste anymore time. 

I can't afford to lose anymore time in these funks, when those people don't lose anytime over putting me there. 

Next Chapter. 

Go.