ffaaaaa-unk.

I've been in a funk.

not just any funk, but a faaaaa-unk. 

(an even deeper funk)

I'm not really sure why, or how, or really even when it all started. But I do know that it stopped me from working out, going out with my friends, and just being me. 

Then I saw this picture of me. I remembered this day, and laughing and screaming as my friends and I took pictures together. I really miss those days. When I could be carefree, my crazy self, and just love on my friends with no second thought. 

Why do I let all these things just bog me down until I can't even breathe? 

Why do I let other people's thoughts of me ruin my own thoughts? 

Why do I let them rule my happiness?

I still cannot even answer that. 

But then I saw this today when I was out with my little siblings. 

I love the US Army. And how true that statement really is in my life. Look at this amazing journey I am on, these amazing things I get to do, and the people I will meet. This is all in my future, and not theirs. If you want to lie to me, use me, be fake, then do it. In 5 years when I'm off making all my dreams come true, you tell me how being alone feels. I'd rather be lonely in a world all of my own, making all my dreams come true, then in a world where I bring people down and don't go anywhere in life. 

All in all, if you're going to be a part of my life, be there. If not, please don't waste anymore time. 

I can't afford to lose anymore time in these funks, when those people don't lose anytime over putting me there. 

Next Chapter. 

Go. 

a little behind

Before I begin, can we just all take a second to admire this cupcake? No? That's to bad. Scratch Cupcakes donated 500 cupcakes to our company on Saturday. I might have been a little overly excited to see those boxes come in the door.           Ya'll can shut up. I was really hungry. Like, beyond hungry.

So overall, Drill was actually a blast this month. Yeah, you heard me right, I said it was a blast. 

In the morning we did our PT test, once again, which is the 2 minutes of push-ups, sit-ups, and a two mile run. I'm sorry, but I do not understand how people can run for miles and miles and just be happy. Two miles and I'm just like NOPE. See-ya. I hate it. It should not even be allowed to be a thing. I am sure that practice makes it easier but still...

     After all that was over, and I was dry heaving a lung, we had MREs out in the field. I cannot eat right after I run, so I had crackers and skittles. Plus it was super hot out, and I was afraid if we had to run again I would throw up! 

    We got to do Land Navigation for the rest of the morning and through the afternoon. We started by getting coordinates and finding it on the map, then we got to go find our points out in the field with our squads. The last few drills I have made some really good friends, and it was a blast getting to know some more people. My squad was all boys too, so I mean that was a real treat. 

After all the sweat, laughter, and sunburns we went inside to eat dinner with our parents. The only real great part of that was that I got real food... and I had to do 10 push ups in front of my dad while telling him how much I loved him. It was a blaaasssttt-terrible.. really really terrible. 

Also, sorry for the delay in this one, I've been a little busy! I am missing this months drill to go to Calliiiffforrnniiaaa. NOICE.