it is complicated.

a question that I have been getting frequently is this:

"Why the Army? Why now? What made you decide to do this?"

and it honestly renders me speechless every single time. 

I don't know how to explain why I decided to take this massive step. I know that it is 100% right for me, but I do not know how to express it. 

But the question still remains.

So here is my scattered way of explaining all of it, and I hope that it all makes sense. 

1). I was tired of people around me complaining about every little thing that happens in the world around them. If you are so upset and out of sorts, why don't you fight to make a difference, or to change it? Do something that is going to be the change you want to see in the world. I guess one reason is that I want to learn about issues and be the change that no one else stands for. 

2). I know that after working hard and going to school I might be able to make a difference in a handful of people's lives. Think of the amount of people I will be able to touch and help in the Army. If you don't understand this point alone, then I'm sorry for you. I wish you understood the  joy that comes from helping people in need, whether that is a large need or a small one. Unfortunately, there is a limit to what you can do in Des Moines, Iowa. 

3). If you know me at all, or even just a little... maybe a smudge... you know how passionate I am about solving problems. I love to piece things together to make a bigger pictures and solve a huge problem. Hence, an Intelligence Analyst. It is honestly the dream job for me. I love to watch NCIS, and McGee's job is so interesting...I cannot believe that is going to be me. 

4). Being a hero.

5). Being a part of something that not a lot of people have the guts to do. Being part of the United States Army. Being a part of something so much bigger than myself. 

I guess that is a handful of things that pops into my head.

I really am still my normal goofy self...

just with a cooler job.